Hi people ^_^

This entry is more of a thinking thingy, not informative, but I just feel like typing it out, so yea.

Last night, as I was trying to sleep ( 2 am ... )
I just couldn't.

My MP3 player was by my side, trying to soothe me, trying to make me feel comfortable, so that I can sleep, but instead, I was giving all my attention to it.

As in, all my attention to the songs that were playing then.

I don't know .. Yesterday night, I let all the doubts about myself overtake me.
Questions, feelings, doubts, I just let them have a go at me.
And somehow I just wanted to bathe in all these doubts I have, about myself, not my friends.
If I was really doing my best, and alot of other stuff,
but I didn't shake them away.
In fact, it was as if I purposely let my guard down. It's like you're defending yourself in a fight, blocking every hit your opponent gives, when suddenly, you just throw down your weapon and stand there with arms wide open.

Everything's all fuzzy now ..
Yesterday night I almost came online on impulse, but I stopped myself.
I wanted to just come online to update my blog, but I decided to off my MP3 Player and just let my tired body bring me into sleep.

Today, I'm ok again. @_@

I dunno what to say.
About last night that is.
Nevermind I guess .. I must learn how to overcome my difficulty in explaining myself ..

Will update later I guess

Take care
+~Peace~+
Wolffang scribbled at Friday, June 03, 2005.